The past few months have been interesting, to say the least, for our family. We've gone from an easy, predictable life at Gospel to a helter-skelter, never know what's happening-tomorrow lifestyle that has just now begun to wear me down. Tim's schedule at Starbucks differs from week to week, so the bulk of home life is now largely dependent on me; the driving back and forth has been rapidly eating away at our budget (gas just hit $4/gal here yesterday!), and on top of it all, we haven't been able to call church home in the last 4 months. Our house still hasn't sold, so we haven't been able to move to Marion yet. The church we're interning at just isn't "home". Personally, I haven't played in a worship service in 4 1/2 mos. I was coming home, after dropping off the kids at school this morning, and I was listening to Hosanna (hillsong) - that song just spoke to me like nothing else in a long time. I felt like I'd finally worshipped after so many long, dry weeks. You ever get that? Maybe God had to take me out of being a part of creating worship experiences, in order for me to experience it on my own ... I miss being a part of a worship team so badly! I've been kind've upset at God for a number of things lately, feeling His silence, and not knowing why .. I still don't have all the answers yet, but at least for a moment, I felt His presence in my car, with Caloway sweetly talking to himself in the backseat, and the rain pelting on the windshield, the wipers slapping back and forth in rhythm. I prayed that God would break my heart for what breaks His. Maybe that's all He wants right now.
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Praying for you my friend! Those desert seasons in our life are soooo difficult! My listening ear is only a phone call away!
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